I decided to continue with some therapy I received free (for 7 visits) for a time. Reason: I keep picking or getting picked by people who are either emotionally unavailable - or, as I recently thought about, need someone to save them. When I think about it, Lori said she was looking for that 'rock,' now why would someone do that? They just want to be taken care of, want to be saved, and there is someone like me - so, I'll bet I need to be in that role - I have been unable to save others so I repeat the whole thing over again by picking people who need saved because... maybe this time; you know what they call that? Insanity. Really, the definition of insanity is doing something over and over again with the same results while expecting a different result - insanity.

Now it will get un-fun - because I know who I could not save. I want to be the good guy, hence my profession. Hence my attempts to be perfect and great fear of not knowing how to do something, or having all the answers. I gotta stop this crap. so there.