Saturday, March 01, 2003

From January-
REM -
"Losing my Religion"

Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
and you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes

Trying to connect with someone who is distant - unavailable

That's me in the corner
Isolation
That's me in the spotlight
Ambition
Losing my religion
Losing my faith in so many things
Trying to keep up with you
Trying to deal with my ambition and work, career, try to advance
And I don't think I can do it.

Oh no, I've said too much,
I haven't said enough.
I thought I heard you laughing
I though I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Do I think my unavailable partners have tried?
Do I give them a break and recognize there was some good times?
Those consessions take away my anger.


Every whisper
of every waking hour
I'm choosing my confessions

consessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt, lost and blinded fool
Oh no, I've said too much
I set it up

Consider this
The hint of the century

not listening to my inner self, knowing things weren't right
Consider this
The slip that brought me
to my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
come flailing around

I'll be just fine, I've been laid low, but I am glad for the new chance

But that was just a dream
That was just a dream

As if I just woke. I thaw and stumble out into the world.

Friday, February 28, 2003

Poetry? February 2001

Dry and warm enough
to paint the backyard fence
in short sleeves

Then cold and wet enough
for snow in the hills
chain control at
highway 35 and 84

Drive up highway 35 to highway 84
stand in the snow.
Watch people come out to play
on a holiday, sleds
made out of
trash can lids.